A surprise trip to Italy…

A month ago James took me for dinner and gave me a card telling me we’d be going on a trip…somewhere that was a surprise… Being the control freak I am I couldn’t not know what was going on – had he planned transfers? Flights? Trains? Something else? My mind raced at the thought of…

Look how far you’ve come

James told me last night he’d been back over and read some of my old blog posts. ‘oh god no you didn’t, why did you do that?’ I said as we got into bed to watch the latest series we’re binging on…he replied ‘to see how far you’ve come’. And it made me think ‘yeah…

A year in review

Does anyone else’s mum / dad write a yearly newsletter? My dad does it at Christmas every year (hand written and photocopied most times) and sends it in a Christmas card to all his friends. It’s a run down of the year and what him, my mum, my brother and I have been up to….

The illusion of the never ending cycle

For years I was in a horrific grips of a violent Narcissist and Psychopath. I tried to rationalise the behaviour in my head, then to friends and family, who could see what was happening and now, finally I see it for what it was. I did my research. I read book upon book about Narcissists…

Lockdown Reflections

It’s the 13th week I have worked from home due to Coronavirus, and exactly 2 months  to the day today since I bought my own property, after a year of hell trying to sell the property I owned with my ex. Somewhat surprisingly I didn’t feel ‘happy’ about it – inside I was ecstatic –…

The Abused

There has been a lot of focus recently on abuse at home. Both Eastenders and Coronation Street have ongoing storylines, and last night Channel 5 aired two programmes back to back about abuse, one focusing on abuse during lockdown, the other abuse in the home in ‘normal times’. You would have thought this really affected…

The death of the celebrity

It is shocking, every time the death of a celebrity is reported. We’re saddened as we feel we know them, on a personal level, where we feel we can judge them for every move they make. They are people. Human beings just like you and I and they can sometimes make mistakes. What right do…

To the man on the plane – fuck you

To the man on the plane – fuck you. Now here’s a story all about how my life got flipped turned upside down…haha don’t worry I won’t bore you all with that – that’s for a different post but I will bore you with something that happened to me yesterday on a flight from London…

Things I would tell my 20 year old self

Well 2019 – you’ve thrown a lot my way in the space of 12 months, some good, some horrendous. As we get close to the new year, new decade and new chapter in my life (turning the big 3-0) I thought I’d reflect on the last 10 years and think about those things I know…

The calm after the storm

Never did I think months ago that I’d be sat here writing this post. My life fell apart all in one day and that was probably the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. I don’t want to dwell on it as that’s the past, and I am looking to the future now….

An anxious free Christmas? Wouldn’t that be lovely!

I am not sure about anyone else – but Christmas is the time of year I feel most anxious. The going out, the Christmas party, the getting home, the getting around on Christmas Day, the who are we going to see – when are we going to see them and what do we need to…